Poetry: Gullible Mother

I'm sorry I lie to you the way I do...
And it's funny.. because I only lie to you.
You ask where it is that I'm going
I throw any female friends name that comes to mind..
but really..
I'm in his arms.. every single one of those times.

I'm sorry I lie to you the way that I do,
But then again, you're used to the lie instead of the true...
and you hit me that day.. remember?
Fuck you.
I cried & you yelled.. I tried then I fell.
You don't love me. Hahahaha.. no you don't.

You are my mother aren't you not?
You are supposed to share with me all that you've got.
But here I am.. with the same dingy clothes..
My poor little grey socks.. the ones with the holes.

I'm useless.. yes I am. That's all you yell at me!
I am what I am! Damn.
Why punish me so!?
You tell me nothing, so I do not know.

But you bash me anyway.. yes you do.
So mommy... I'm sorry I lie to you the way that I do...
But you hit me that day
So fuck you.

(irrelevant)

Poetry: Say Goodbye

It's so easy loving you
Yes, yes its true.
It's so easy loving you...
So easy to let you hurt me when you do.
So easy to let you strike me when you do..
Cause it's so easy loving you.

I take the pain & make it my own..
It's my own fault, I know.
Hit me, make me bleed,
Bruise me up.. I feel the high..
You're like my weed.
It's my own fault..
These are my own thoughts.

But hey, I do it to my own self.
The pain, all the marks that you dealt.
It's my own fault.

You say shut up
But I keep talking
You say stop
But I keep walking
You say come back
But theres no more stopping.

It was so easy loving you.
But now? Baby now? I say adieu.
So goodbye & goodlife
From me, to you.

(irrelevant)

Poetry: Broken

Break me!
I yell break me!
Seems everywhere I look
Everywhere I turn
Someones trying to shake me
Why do people hate me?
Fuck you! Fuck your life.. I whisper..
I wish you'd die! But I don't.
Throw your words at me! That's all they do.
Sting like stones.. This is what you do!

Break me! Hate me!
You will never take me.
I am me & I am unique & I am strange
I am an alien with no brain... ha.
Fuck you. You don't understand!
This is who I am! This is who I am!

Fake. Fake? What, when, where, how!?
Why? You can't pin me down.
Try to hit me, I dare you.
I can only look... I snare you.
But why.. why hate me?

Innocent! Innocent I am!
I've done nothing! I'm still human.
Mistakes.. Mistakes yes.. I'll make.
But me? No. Fuck you.
Me? You will NEVER break.

Poetry: Forgotten Love

A dream has awoken me

A nightmare.

My eyes bloodshot

With despair.

He breathes quiet whispers in my ear

Gently strokes the tangles in my hair...

He softens my cold air

I look around but he's not there.

This is my nightmare, this is my dream

This is the trafedy for which I can't break the seams

I'm torn across with glee & worry

Confused if I should just apologize & say I'm sorry...

But I don't... & I won't.

Your love is undeserving of me,

So you shove me away, so much, I decay.

Tickled by your smiles.. damn it's been a while.

I miss ya swagga & ya style..

But damn.. It's been a while.

Forget you.

(irrelevant to anything)

Poetry: Whisper

If a whisper was a shout I would be no more
For I whisper death upon you whore.
I foretell to insinuate a false corruption
But dealing with you solves nothing.
If I were to run you'd walk behind
If I were to fall you step on me
If I were to lose you would win
For me? I am nothing.

I demonstrate kindness and nothing else
I hate to deal with hatred, but it must be held.
Off with their heads! No looking back!
Pow pow! The guns roar with a smack!
Blood! Blood everywhere!
Pow pow! The guns roar with a smack!
Problems? Where? Fact? You lack.

Death! Death to you they yell!
Why! What did you do?
Innocent by nature, victim by words.
Who are you they ask!
No one you reply!
Pow pow! The guns roar with a smack!
Blood! Blood everywhere!

Until.. you are no more,
For I whisper death upon you whore.

Poetry: Follow

A mind is only as forsaken as you make it be
You peeped mine so now you follow me.
The evergreen shadows insinuating a future foretold
To those who shall never know.. to grow.
To live is to love, to live is to learn
To hurt is to yearn, just wait for a turn.
Broken dreams are pieced together easily
You peeped mine so now you follow me.
A simple life lived is hardest to love
For a simple slip will cause you to shove.
Losing grip on reality who clarifies lies
You started with hellos, but now you say goodbyes.
Count to one, have some fun.
Count to two, its nice to meet you.
Count to three, easily play me.
Count to four? I'm nothing more.
Nothing more than a dream thought of as supreme.
My supremacy is that of my mind broken & combined
A walk steps backwards hoping I find time.
Failure is an outcome but success is the KEY.
Success is what I need, that is why you follow me.